I wanted to write about how the process is making me feel. But my feelings have been so dramatically fickle, that I thought I better time stamp it.
In the last 24 hours 4 more people from the forum received referrals. Three of them are behind us on the list.
So, how does this make me feel? So hopeful we could a referral today, I could sing. So jealous that I want to punch one of these happy new mothers. Just kidding... kinda. So frazzled that my back is more tense than Mid-East peace talks. So desperate to share with anyone who would ask. So annoyed with anyone who would ask. So trusting in the Lord that I know the story He is weaving is one I'll tell with glee for the rest of my days (yes, GLEE). So tired of hearing people tell me that it is in God's timing. So disappointed in my spiritual immaturity that I can't inspire all of you with my unwavering faithfulness and hope.
Well, I'll check in at 10:16 to let you know how I'm feeling then :)
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on a sad note, I can relate...WAY to well (our state adoptions are in the same kind-of boat, but not really!)
On the DL...I fell in love with a little boy from Liberia, so I have the agency application filled out and sitting in my bag of things to do that I carry to work everyday...we are in major prayer to start the process again. You would think I would learn my lesson, but I am sucker for just that face, waiting for a mommy to love them!
Love you and am praying for you...saddened and frustrated for you as well!
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