Not sure what to even say....

I wanted to write, but I have no idea what to even say. My emotions are completely shot!

I feel like I have gotten on a roller coaster ride that I wanted to get on, but the turns and the up side down flips and whirls are too much for me, but I am buckled in and the ride has already started. The ride didn't seem like it was to rough before I got on, but now it seems like I can hardly hold on. I feel like the roller coaster is never going to stop.

As most of you know the 15th was suppose to be the cut off date until September, but I talked to our Adoption Agent yesterday and she said we are at the top of the list so if a child comes into the orphanage and the Ethiopian agents think there is enough time still to get through the courts there is still a possibility for us to get in. If we do we would travel in late September. If we do not hear anything in the next week or so she said we would be one of the first to receive a referral in September when they reopen. That means we would be traveling November. Like I said in the beginning, I really don't even know what to say anymore. I feel weak and so emotional I can hardly take it. I just want my baby home.

Cindie